lately i've been having crazy mood swings and they keep getting worse my friends are actually starting to pick up on it. i go from immensly happy and laughing and hyper to just not being happy, kind of an unexplainable feeling. really confused though. sometimes i cry or just clam up and get quiet somtimes i go numb and expressionless sometimes i get really angry. it makes me feel bad and sometims i can't express feelings i really have. they get held in and blocked away and it dr ives me crazy. when i actually feel i should cry about something i just can't but then i will cry over something stupid and i don't understand. i'm being pulled in so many different directions inside i just want to scream. i feel like i'm going crazy inside, and no one takes me seriously. i'm that stupid hyper girl that laughs too much, nothing i do or say could ever be taken seriously. but why do i laugh? i don't know why, i laugh to cover any emotion i might have i guess, my closer friends tell me i'm "laughing on the outside" kind of the opposite of a clown or something. and i can't explain myself which makes things even worse no one believes me they think i'm over reacting that i'm making all this up but i'm going crazy inside; really crazy inside
11:56 p.m. - 2002-10-05
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