wow. when is the last time i made an entry? i neglect my journal i feel, but i suddenly feel inspired to write in my journal. i was reading someone elses and was like wow i neglect this thing, i should add more entries and i really need to work on my template. after i do have this rather nifty site, (thanx to amy) to change this thing around from really sucky to possibly a little less sucky :-p yeah well i don't know what to write, i was sitting hear thinking about an editorial i wrote for the school newspaper that i never turned in, because it would of pissed to many ppl off, to many of those ppl at my school who do nothing other than try to impress someone else, try to be someone else and claim it to be themselves. i mean who is really true to themselves anymore, not even the "weird kids" are original anymore. everyone does everything for a reason to impress someone else, imean we all do what we do for a response maybe impressing someone really doesn't mean making them like you, you could impress someone to the point of...... where they think your insane and never want to talk to you again. a lot of ppl call me a poser, because i don't have a one particular style other than, being myself, my style is rather random as myself. it fits my moods, it's me. it's rather perturbing because when i sit and actually think about it i think, wait a minute is that the oppisite of a "poser" in my mind anyone who judges anyone else is �poserish� (it is my rule that you can add -ish or -ness to any word and it is still a word!), i mean i don't think anyone is genuinly true to themselves any longer, everyone looks to someone else; wants someone else to like them� I also think everyone wants someone else to �want� to be like them. the only real way to be true to yourself, is to not want to be liked, really i don't care about what ppl at school think, not about how I dress and act so much at least. I definitely care about other things that I can�t explain, but not so much in school. i mean I don't have to live with them, after highschool how many of them will i actually stay friends with, we will all move on get jobs or go to college and forget about one another. That�s sad to think on account of I feel that as of now I have some pretty good friends that I want to stay a part of my life much much longer, but how logical as that. Not to mention just this year I really noticed that sometimes, friends don�t stay around and they most definitely don�t stay �best friends� and that can go the other way around just as well. I mean you can hate someone for a while but get over it and be friends. I guess people just change� trying to be something their not. Trying to be liked. Trying to be liked can really make you liked even less to be perfectly honest. Do me a favor everyone� stop trying so hard and just talk to me. (remember I did not and will not exclude myself from what I have to say)
8:29 p.m. - 2003-02-19
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