i neglect this damn thing far too much... but i think about it a lot. i always have so much to say but i'm to lazy to get on and put it here to be seen. yeah life sucks. recently a thought to be good friend told me "shit happens life goes on" and yeah she's right... but in the context she said it i don't think i can talk to her anymore. it's really sad. i'd like to think i'm a decent friend, i mean i'm there for people as much as i possibly can be and trust is a number one thing for me. i can't lie, i just rat myself out. but apparently not many other people feel that way so i just go and get screwed over again and again. i wish it would stop... but i'm so scared of becoming cynical of the world like my mom... that i go and trust everyone. it's funny sometimes you get so scared of being something that you go and your such a complete opposite that your really just as bad. i guess i've matured a lot and gotten better at picking my friends... but i like to be forgiving and i like to trust people... not to mention i'm incapable of holding a grudge. yeah i'm sure i'll forgive michelle... after i force her onto medication because she's insane... and maybe tell her why she hurt me so much. it's funny... someone does something so completely horrible and completely betrays your trust and then they think your upset because of something totally petty. yeah none of this makes sense i guess because i'm stupid haha. but whatever i'll get over it. "shit happens life goes on right" all i can say is that the pain of betrayal is one of the worst things in the world.... choose your friends wisely. why do i have to feel things so intensly? (this thing should really have a spell check!)
6:57 p.m. - 2003-08-14
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