dahhgg I�m writing this in works because the Internet isn�t hooked up right now because
my family is paranoid about some virus. but yeah that is a ok I can put down my
thoughts right here and copy it later (my cousin said she�d hook it up later) my family is
crazy but I love them. I want to go home!!! I�m gonna have like one day home and then
school is starting back up... and that bites I have a lot to do. I need to finish my summer
work (given I can do that here) but I want to get my hair cut and I want to clean my room
and get my school stuff ready and other miscellaneous crap! oh by the way I just dyed
my hair red... very very red. it said medium auburn but turned out kind of burgundy it�s
really pretty. haha it�s just weird seeing it being as I�ve always been pretty much
blonde... I really need a hair cut! blah blah blah. I don�t wanna go back!!! hey I have
spell check!! I have too much to do when I get home.. jeez school hasn�t even started
and I�m already freaking out... how will I survive all the homework... I�m glad I signed
up for easy classes though I�ll probably hate it because I�ll be bored to death... at least
Sara is in a lot of my classes that makes me happy... she�s awesome and a lot of people
are in my art class and I love art so that�s awesome too. haha I just realized I have art the
same period I did last year haha that�s crazy. *sigh* school sucks but I love seeing some
people.
talking about seeing people Kelly was down with her dad so we got to go to the beach
together and that was awesome too... she�s probably my only friend that really likes the
beach everyone else is a recluse. I got kind of burnt and that sucked but it faded
already... yeah I was hurting yesterday, but I still went to church (really the kingdom hall
for anyone who knows what the hell I�m talking about) with my grandmother because I
love her and she didn�t want to go all alone... I really need to stop yelling JESUS
CHRIST whenever I feel the need haha it�s not really good I guess... I mean I know I�ve
offended some people before and I guess I am christian... yeah.. OMFG my mom asked
my cousin if I was a lesbian today!! arg!! ok my parents don�t want me to have like any
male contact they grill me about any guy friends I have and I�m not really boy crazy
anyway (but that doesn�t mean I�m a friggin� lesbian!) and then they get all upset
because I don�t go and talk about guys 24 7 but none of my friends do those kind of girls
usually drive me up the wall... yeah I think a lot of guys are hott but I�m not �really�
attracted to anyone... I�ve only actually cared about anything with two guys ever and the
first time I had a bad habit of talking about him so my parents knew and kept asking me
so now... he doesn�t exist at my house... so they have no clue and that�s good... I guess
it�s ok they think I�m a lesbian more than grilling me about the truth because there is no
way in hell I�m giving that information up... it�s just weird and I really just wish they
could accept me as who I am and let me be... I mean I�ve already made up my mind and
I�m quite determined to wait until I�m married... I know too many people that say it�s not
worth and all they get is way to much drama... and personally I feel that�s an enormous
thing to give up and I mean I guess I need to know just how important I am to the
receiving end. maybe I�m being too sentimental but I think I�m avoiding a lot of
unnecessary bs that I don�t want any part of... I hate drama!!! why is it so hard being the
good kid?! not that I�m an angel or anything... I just set high bars for myself... I need to
go somewhere and get out of this life so I need to be careful so I don�t just go and screw
it all up... I have goals and dreams and I plan on making them so much more than that...
that�s all.... god I�m a loser!
this is actually a day late because i couldn't get on sorry :p
10:20 - august 23, 2003
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