wow free time, *sigh* it's a beautiful thing. i don't get this often i usually feel very crowded and closed in. i can breathe now though, i'm home all alone no one here to bother me i can breathe freely no one here to critisize me. all is good, well at least for this short time frame, things just aren't so bad.
not that anyone actually reads this or actually cares but, yeah i have been a little upset over some stuff. death in particular. ppl shouldn't die, it's just not right i've come to that conclusion. i've recently come to a lot of conclusions and plan on giving up on some of lifes goals as soon as possible. Trust me it's not as bad as it seems, some things just aren't worth my time and won't ever really benifit me so i don't want or need them anymore.
*sigh* this time home all alone just breathing and feeling alone, but in a good way. i like it. I've never particularly liked being alone though at many times it seems i may have preferred it. Anyway, lonliness tends to be a very bad feeling but this alone is wonderful, i'm kinda tired of talking to people, they just don't do anything for me anymore. i think i should have more alone time. Alone is suddenly a good feeling, i'm not sure wheather this is good or bad yet, my enjoying being alone so much and all.
Wow no one is even online to bother me this is great, no one is home to call. now that i can't communicate with anyone, i really like it. *sigh* *breath*
Today was OK, Holly came over after school I haven't seen her in quite sometime, it was nice to have her over. We went on a walk, and it was nice (trying to ignore the crazy old men who kept beeping at us). Yeah anyway today just wasn't so bad i feel very relaxed.
All my classes were very simple just preparing for finals and HSA's, but no real work. This may seem weird but tests don't scare me at all, i am not worried in the least about all these tests coming up. *breath*
one problem that i can dwell on in the slightest right now, Michelle makes me mad, i am never mean to her i never talk about her poorly, if anything i am nice to her, but she still hates me and puts me down and i just don't get it. Some people are just so petty it really sucks. If it weren't for those people life would go so much smoother.
Wow I am really mellowed out it's good! I'm so used to having uncontrollable energy which tends to get on your nerves after a while, I am really enjoying my mellowess (yeah i know that's not a word).
7:02 p.m. - 2002-05-15
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