i'm going to bed now.....
if i die before i wake... i'd just like to say thanks, fore it will be over, all over...
i was never too fond of any of those recitable prayers, they aren't real, but nothing is real... reachable. so detatched... so very detatched.
if i could cry i would, but waiting for tears to fall is becoming old, finally i shed a tear, but i am not released. they stop too soon. all i want is to cry, but i fear it too much. i'm preventing myself from relief.
i wish... that i felt loved... and i wish that i could just talk and not care what thought, and not worry about making someone uncomfortable. but more than that, i wish someone would just see me and know, and make it all go away.
i want to runaway, i want to hide, i want to be caught, i want to be seen. i feel your hate, i long for your love. i want you to leave me alone, i want you to rock me like a baby. catch me, find me, love me, hold me.
you were so close and then left me... just outta reach... i'm drowning without you. i see your face you pull me out just to let go. you watch as i sink, like a pile of rocks and you don't even notice. i falling... catch me please, don't let go...
to whom am i refering too i do not know.
don't try to make sense of what does not make sense. don't try to understand me for i do not understand myself. there is no logical answer.
goodbye...
12:41 a.m. - 2003-01-05
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