happy happy joy joy happy happy joy joy...... that song is stuck in my head....... along with a headache :D i'm not happy happy joy joy though, but i'm not sad either, no need to worry about me!!!!!! i'm just special that's all i'm a special special girl. some people think the only way i will every be normal is with meds. i dunno though. i think time might help me, and maybe that's all that will. i definitely see the possibility of me winding up in some rehab/clinic/institution but i guess that just depends on how much self control i have from here on out. yeah some people think i can't do it. i realy don't know. maybe i'll be fine or maybe i'll drown myself in the bathtub. i really don't know. i'm pretty numb right now. i like it. i'd be content sitting in a warm sunny room doing nothing justbeing alone. that's all i want right now. and bright warm room. but only real light... sunlight. sunlightis so beautful and the warmth you get from it is differnt from any other warmth. it's like the sun just wraps you up. it's like a really good hug. that's something i like. i like hugs. there is a certain warmth and security with them. and they don't have tomean anything unless you want them too. it can just be hug. i don't get so many hugs. that's kinda sad. but to bad, i prolly scare ppl away. i mean i do sometimes hate everyone... and i do sometimes tell everyone that i do. that might scare people a bit. but it's ok... i'm ok.... i'm going to be fine.
9:16 p.m. - 2003-01-17
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